I started writing this almost five months ago. I really wanted to think this through and try to give the entire story and thought process. Thank you for being patient. 🙂
August 25th, 2013. My conversion to Judaism. My homecoming, as it were. A plethora of years spent searching had come to fruition. I am a Jew.
I was born at Womens and Childrens hospital in Charleston, WV at 2:56pm on January 7th, 1991 via emergency C-section. I was sunny side up and had the umbilical cord wrapped thrice around my neck. I DID NOT want to come out.
I have two siblings, both younger. Nicole, born August 28th 1992, and Justin, born October 2nd 1995. Our parents divorced when he was six months old.
I can only assume that my mom was bitter. She hated G-d and church and anything pertaining to them. My father found religion not long before he abandoned us, due to my mother. My mawmaw tried to get us in church, but due to my mother’s disdain, she only did so sporadically. We relished being out of the house, but I never felt entirely comfortable. Many family members made us feel inferior because we weren’t in church every sunday. Mom made us feel bad because we went in the first place.
Fast forward: I was in sixth grade, and we started reading Number the Stars, by Lois Lowry. I fell in love with this book. I wanted to know more about this mystical religion. Judaism.
I started with learning about HaShoah. The Holocaust. I knew the risks before the benefits, in hindsight. The Holocaust was an awful, horrid massacre of several peoples. For no reason. And that intrigued me. What could this people, the Jews, possibly have done to warrant this? Nothing. They did nothing. But, from this, I learned about how amazing Judaism as a religion is. I was enamored. I flew through every single religion/jewish book in Saint Albans Public Library I could find. I found out that it made more sense to me than anything else I had ever come across regarding religion.
As an eleven year old though, I apparently couldn’t decide to convert right then and there. But I did what I could regarding shabbat and holidays. I lit a candle when I got home from football games on friday nights. I made a hanukiah for hanukkah. It wasn’t correct. It wasn’t as halakhah-ly legit as it could’ve been. I still had a secular christmas with my family. I still received an easter basket. But we weren’t a religious household in any way, shape, or form.
When I got to college, I started studying deeper. I found more books, more information. I met my now husband. One night, I was looking online for more resources, and Hashem led me to the website of B’nai Jacob Synagogue. I emailed Rabbi Victor Urecki and asked how I could convert.
This was 2am. And he got back to me within 5 minutes. We set up a meeting and started the conversion process.
My now husband was not Jewish. I converted for myself. And then I started down the path of orthodoxy.
And now, my beshert is about to start the conversion process himself. I am convinced that Hashem led me down this path for a reason. And I am happy to say that I am just now starting to see what the reason(s) may be.